Tonight I sit here resonated with a deep sense of gratitude for how God is stirring within me. As most of you know I’ve felt called to go overseas in January to do the program called Youth With a Mission to not only further my own relationship with the Lord, but to be better equipped to love others around the world, including here at home. This has been a dream and a goal of mine for nearly a year and a half with many struggles and burdens along the way. Time is drawing nearer and nearer with my departure being in an overwhelming 10 short weeks and things are all starting to fall into place, regardless of my previous spending habits, days of discouragement, and maintaining focus on what lies ahead. Throughout the duration of these challenges God has revealed to me astoundingly enough the perspective it takes to cultivate an understanding of the longing each of us has when we seem to be unfulfilled by everything this world has to offer. It’s as if we’re searching for completeness when the Provision that has us there has been pursuing us all along.
The other night I was reading Habakkuk and the hugest thing that stuck out to me was, “Look and be utterly amazed. For I am going to do something in your days that you would not believe, even if you were told.” Habakkuk is a book about a prophet who was in direct communication with God and asked why he allowed such evil to run rampant. Like most of us he couldn’t understand why good things happen to bad people and why bad things happen to good people. While God doesn’t answer some of these questions he assures that destruction will come to those who seek this world. He assures in chapter 2 verse 14 that “the earth will be filled with the knowledge of the glory of the Lord, as the waters cover the sea.” We don’t always understand what or why but the point is that in both those passages God assures us the very best and that the true things that matter cannot be tangible by means of this world. By the end of the book Habakkuk is rejoicing and praising saying that The Lord is his STRENGTH even if he has nothing worldly. This my friends is what I sense to be a crucial issue prevalent in our society. We seek success, material wealth, and our own desires to have comfortable lives on this planet of which we spend so little time. Genuinely I feel like God is constantly stirring in us to be in a state of discomfort and I don’t mean that negatively. I think it means that we need to be convicted daily that if even though our own lives are peaceful this opens up to be a light for someone else and allow that peace to spread. This causes a chain reaction and it’s easy to do when we have everything we want. But what happens when we barely have what we need? We grow stingy, and we want to harbor our resources to ourselves. Now I’m not saying to give all we own to the nearest stranger, but to place a perspective on where we hold our desires in comparison to eternity.
What I’ve realized on this road is that when I have much, He’s the reason for it. When I have much it’s to share with others. Investing life in Him provides contentment because when things of this earth fall away, Jesus is remaining with a warm embrace. You see, when we are left with nothing of this world materialistically what are we left with? We are left with whatever dwells within us and if it’s selfishness then there’s nothing left but death and decay, but when all that is left is vulnerable us, we are open to eternity. When all that’s left is pure, raw, undivided attention from us it allows God to come in with his love. Have you ever loved someone and it spreads like wildfire? That is exactly what happens when we declutter our lives and allow ourselves to unabashedly let God in to love us realizing he is ENOUGH, and then we can better love others; that same exact love that spreads like wildfires.
It all reminds me of the story of Jesus and his disciples feeding the 5,000 people. Think about that. 5,000 hungry bodies craving nourishment. Sound familiar? Replace physical starvation with spiritual. This is the world. This is the driving force behind me doing YWAM, and the reason why this world is the way it is. Jesus and his friends only had a few pieces of fish and bread. They barely had enough for themselves let alone thousands of people, but then something amazing happened. These masses had faith and knew Jesus was ENOUGH and he provided for them. To me the fish and the bread is symbolic of love. When it’s all we have left we find we have a lot to give. We can begin to diminish this world’s spiritual hunger (and physical) by just simply turning away from the things we think we need to the things we know that others need. By pouring into others, others may pour into you. Not only that but we have a God who understands our temptations and desires. Satan tempted Jesus with all the riches this world had to offer, but because Jesus is faithful to His father all he had was HIMSELF, and that alone was enough for the father. Jesus is the Son of God, and could have had the world wrapped around his pinky, he could’ve had more “much” than any of the wealthiest people combined but no. He knew that path lead to destruction so he chose God, He chose us. It was HIM who had the epitome of little and sacrificed Himself and that my friends is why when you accept little, you gain everything.
So as I go about my days and you go about yours let’s constantly be asking ourselves what is much that is distracting us from having little so we may lay it down having nothing, yet gaining everything from the One who truly gave it all.