200 Days of Lessons

Lately I’ve been evaluating my life and all the circumstances (wonderful and not so much) and trying to pinpoint what exactly my next steps are, the outcomes of situations, and how God plays a part in it all. Before long, anxiety had started to creep in because it seemed that every aspect of my life was requiring my attention and I had to step back to see the bigger picture instead of trying to control things. I thought it important to study God’s word and what He says, and am having mad revelation of the lessons that are so much greater than the circumstances. I also thought it important to write them down, type them out, and share them, because sometimes it’s easier to grow in uncertain times with people you can relate with. I’m a relational person and enjoy sharing what God is doing in my life and hearing how He works in others, so here ya go! Enjoy! And share with me dear friends what He’s doing in yours. Xxxxxxx

These 200 days (can you believe it’s been 200 days?!?!?!) I have been in Australia have been a time of rejoicing, of trial and tribulation, a cycle of my life to break my will, yet to build my spirit to be in line with His. It has broken me in ways that make me more aware of His glory and His goodness. In this new home I have learned what it means to be bold. I have learned what it means to stand up for myself and to rise up instead of sitting down. I have learned how to discern God’s voice in the noise of this world and stand firm in what I believe. I have learned that the next steps are not always clear and that they are not mine to control. I have learned my value to love myself as a daughter of the King; holy and dearly beloved. In these exact moments I am having revelation of what it means to submit my life to Him and counting everything else as a loss that is incomparable to the love that encapsulates my existence. I have learned not to depend on the emotions of myself or others, but on the incredible treasure that I find by belonging solely to an intimate love with Someone Who is fiercely passionate about my character; who I am inside more than out. It’s not my happiness or that I receive the pleasures this world has to offer, but Someone Who loves me so much He will break my will and replace it with His because He knows it’s what’s best for me. My afflictions are nothing compared to the suffering that had to occur in order to bring me life, yet every little thing that brings me to my knees is considered dearly important and worthy of a holy comfort. Likewise, the great joys in this life that bring me happiness are not to be rested upon because in themselves are only temporal. There is a common denominator in having this one Love. My rock, my fortress, I cannot express the joy that I find in knowing how dearly loved I am. I am learning to be a woman that is gentle, yet bold. I am learning to be a woman that exhibits truth, nobility, righteousness, purity, loveliness, and admirability. I am learning to not anticipate the worst, yet expect that whatever outcomes may come to pass are for my good. I am learning that the things I learn now are equipping me to speak into the lives of others who have yet to see deep revelation of God’s love for them. I am not here to serve God, because God came to serve us, but my position is to bring Him glory in the way that I worship Him with how I live. I am learning everyday the importance of having the urgency to lavish people with love that comes from beyond the flow of my own heart, even if it means leaving my deepest vulnerabilities and desires out of the realms of my control.

“Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you. I rejoiced greatly in the Lord that at last you renewed your concern for me. Indeed, you were concerned, but you had no opportunity to show it. I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all this through Him who gives me strength. Yet it was good of you to share in my troubles.” Philippians 4:4-14

Excuses Never Prosper

I have been disobedient to God lately. That doesn’t sound like the happy clappy missionary I know y’all think I am, but it’s the truth! How have I been disobedient? My confession entails a sheer lack of willingness to step out into the aspects of ministry I know God has been giving me vision for.

Ever since I arrived in Australia I’ve known that I am here to serve at YWAM. Lately I’ve been asking myself what that means and what it looks like, because I’m fully aware that my season here most likely won’t be forever. I’ve been asking myself how to maximize my time here to take advantage of every opportunity that has been given to me. I’ve been stressing about finances (although I’m super grateful for a church that supports me back home and pays my staff fees to have the ability to serve on base), my purpose, and sometimes even what my ministry even looks like. I feel as if God has been speaking “more” into my life, but it has just recently occurred to me that maybe I should actually talk to Him about it instead of speculating it all on my own (novel idea, hey? HA!)

This vision for my ministry that I’ve had, has been on my heart, my mind, and frankly God just won’t leave me alone about it. When I see myself in ten years I see myself having the ability to give to people to release them into their calling, whether it be ministry or missions. I so desperately see myself wanting to pour into others the way others have poured into me. In a YWAM community I see first hand the way staff and students alike struggle. I’d love nothing more than to be a vessel of which I may bless others and build a life to bring that blessing to the nations.

In September, I signed up to be a consultant for Arbonne. Little did I know that this not only was a job opportunity, but a ministry opportunity that God would have on my heart day in and day out, that eventually I would become disobedient to by ignoring. I have felt strong conviction because I’ve been too afraid to step out because of the bad name network marketing in general is given (though Arbonne is unlike any other network marketing company in the industry) and the fear of rejection and laziness and every other excuse in the book have overwhelmed my knowledge that God is greater and makes a way if HE is the one directing you in the direction He calls you to.

Arbonne is a 37 year old vegan skincare, nutrition, and makeup company. We sell everything from foundation, to diaper cream, to deodorant and toothpaste. Established, and truly living up to its slogan “Pure, safe, and beneficial.” In fact, 4 days before hearing about Arbonne I was making fun of network marketing companies because of the bad rep they get for shoving products down people’s throats. It wasn’t until my now uplines Sabrina, Tess, and Cathy explained it in a way that really resonated with me. Not only that, but upon trying things myself I realized that this was something I could be passionate about because I see the difference in it. That it’s not just a gimmick to make personal gain, but it’s people investing in YOU as a small business owner instead of huge corporations that are selling you cheap products containing highly refined black crude oil, dead animal fat (gross), and other horrendous things most people have no idea they are putting on and in their body. Not only that but also with inflated prices where the CEO is probably on his or her third holiday home. And guess what else? Even if you don’t want to buy anything, or become a consultant, I still want you!! Valuing the individual is critical because this isn’t a cutthroat business. Everyone has something to offer, whether it be you knowing someone who might want to know more, or you want to host! There are a plethora of options for everyone beyond just buying and selling.

Fast forward 7 months. I’m still an independent consultant, and I haven’t promoted to the first level of management yet. Why? I haven’t done anything towards it! I have this grand vision of being able to educate people on what they put on and in their bodies and giving them an alternative that not only benefits me financially, but benefits in building relationships, and eventually having a sustainable business that supports others to grow in what God is calling them towards. That the financial freedom isn’t to be something that is greedy but another open door because unfortunately to do anything in this world you have to have money. Jesus has shown me perseverance, commitment, and what it looks like to bear fruit for the sake of His kingdom because of this company. Because I desire to see people healthy, and being good stewards of themselves, each other and this world. I want to build connections and relationships with people who I otherwise wouldn’t have a reason to get connected with. I want more than anything to have the financial freedom to see ministries flourish because of the financial blessing God is entrusting to me and others to further His kingdom. I want to see other men, women, and families have this same ability.

I could sit around and complain that I’m not getting anywhere, but isn’t it like that with most things we do in life? Sometimes God so desperately wants to move, but I know what He won’t do is spoon feed His children when He knows that with Him they are capable of so much more. The things we pursue so long as they are for the glory of God will be blessed and He will direct our steps. As a missionary, I have no money. Like, none….but, instead of letting my pride get the best of me, God has given me this avenue to be able to not only create an income, but to do something so much more valuable with it that I wouldn’t trade for the world.

If you’ve read this far, I appreciate you for bearing with me in love and seeing my vision of what God has been speaking to me. Please, I LOVE when people ask me questions and if this post has sparked anything in you feel free to reach out! Feel free to follow my journey as I will be updating more about this business turned ministry opportunity and I would love to have people partner with me in this endeavor.

Blessings,
Alexa

xoxo

Altogether Lovely

My one month back in Australia is already fast approaching!!! I figured it was about time to do a blog post, as I will be trying to be more consistent than I was on DTS (no promises lol). For all those who have been supporting me financially and through prayer, I feel it is most appropriate to express my gratitude first and foremost, for if it weren’t for God working through all of you I wouldn’t be sitting in my dorm, on my bunk in Australia, feeling dreamy and in love with what God is doing here.

With it being almost Christmas time, people have asked me, “aren’t you going to miss home for the holidays?” And my response is always yes and no… Yes because of course I wish I could share it with all my friends, family, church, and community at home, yet no, because of my contentedness with being here. Every morning I wake up with a new zeal and a childlike faith that is so new and refreshing. Though I work long hours, almost everyday of the week, it is with great joy that they are done. Monday-Friday I work as staff on base in the registrar office 8:30am-5:30pm. This job allows me to be one of the first people that incoming students and staff get to talk to and to be able to know them each by name, pray for them, and see how their journey is coming along into coming here fills my heart with such expectancy for each and every one of them. One day a week usually a Saturday, or a Sunday or maybe even during the week I also work part time at a South African restaurant (and for all you in Australia come to All Out Africa, it’s amazing!!). The ability to work in such a positive environment where everyone is so loving is not something you see everyday, especially in the restaurant business. Though in the three shifts I’ve worked thus far I feel at home, and the blessing of having another paying job has its perks as well!! Not only that, but continuing my Arbonne business in Australia has seen new doors open into where I believe God is really going to open doors for ministry that will extend past my season here at YWAM.

With the amount going on, normally I would be stressed to the max, but everyday I have this utter joy that I save up and hold onto for the days when it may get a little rough. That’s life! But one thing God has been speaking into my life over the duration of my almost month here, that actually gave itself a name today in prayer was loveliness. The past month here has been not only full, but fruitful in what seems like what it should be is tough transition of moving to a foreign country. How lovely is it that God has seen my dream through and as I sit in bed there is no place I’d rather be? How lovely is it that God has placed people into my life here that have deeply and profoundly impacted my life and to think that most of my life they were halfway across the world? How lovely is it that my heart, my home, and my God are in unison and that the zeal and love I have for my Jesus is ever so strong? The more I grow, the more excited I get to see how the next 2 years and beyond here hold in this most beautiful country. How I wish everyone to feel the tenderest sense of love and compassion that our Jesus has for us, that when we walk with Him and that when He’s all we desire, everything is altogether more lovely.

So thank you, thank you, thank you again to my family, my friends, Grace Community Church, and everyone else that has been cheering me on, supporting me, and walking with me. It brings me great honor to take your blessings and multiply them with others.

Until next time,
Alexa

Becoming a Woman of God

Friends and family!

Life update!!! I have so much to tell you, but I’m whittling it down to this….The past couple weeks I’ve been digging into what God has been saying to me and last week we had our week on relationships. God has been so faithful in assuring me of different ways to grow and be a woman of Him. To be His bride, and to live that out. It’s been a challenge but a growth I never could have imagined. Our speaker was the beautiful Tania Pieterse and as the weeks have gone on I’ve written down what I think it means to be a woman of God. It’s a beautiful thing to realize, and my hope in conveying this is as women we can be motivated to seek after Jesus regardless of our dreams that we may have and the liberation of not beating ourselves up for wondering what, when, who, why and how. It’s a process, and a process I’m still learning and nowhere near being close to, but I want to seek these things with my whole heart. So even though this is scatterbrained and grammatically most likely incorrect I feel something crucial to share. 🙂

 

Woman of God: What does it mean to be a woman of God?
Does God see these things in you?

-Doing what is right
-Speak the truth
-Does not slander
-Does no evil against others
-Do not be critical of others
-Honors and fears the Lord
-Keeps word even when it could be harmful to self
-Good steward of money
-Never take a bribe

Be a woman who is so focused on the Lord and her Heavenly Husband that any godly man will see that and want to know Jesus more. That instead of drawing attention to herself, she draws the attention to the goodness of God. She’s not occupied with things of the world, but every relationship is significant to her. She spends her days extending her time and efforts dying to self and being gentle with everyone. She follows the 10 commandments:
No other gods (this includes people!!)
Will not create an idol
Do not use the Lord’s name in vain
Remember the Sabbath and to spend time with God
Honor father and mother
Do not murder
Do not commit adultery
Do not steal
Do not gossip or tell lies about others
Do not covet over what others have, be content!!

Be a woman who treats EVERYONE younger as brothers and sisters and EVERYONE older as mothers and fathers. Honor and respect everyone. Do not treat a brother in Christ in a way I wouldn’t treat my own brother. Focus on the heavenly and put down all rights and desires. Keep thoughts on what God wants for my life. Be a woman that guards her heart and is saving herself wholly for marriage. Be a woman who guards her heart, her thoughts, her speech, and the way she acts around men because she doesn’t need them to feel satisfied. Everything in the past was a result of physically filling a spiritual need that led to a brokenness and a tie that God never intended. Be a woman who turns from those ways and lays down her desires by fighting the enemy and her own selfish thoughts to be wholly committed to Jesus.

Prayer:

I am captivated by you and I want to be a woman who only sees you. You are my one true love and the only one that I could ever need or want. I lay down marriage and family and ideas of seeing myself with someone because you make everything beautiful in its time and you know who I need. Please God with my whole heart and soul please don’t let me entertain my thoughts with fantasies of the future or what it could hold or how it could play out. Your plan for my life is so much more beautiful, it’s useless to waste my thought space on what I think could be good, because you have what’s best. Because of you I will never settle because you are my standard. You are the one that I want and I’m tired of fearing missing out just because I’m having a lack of trust in you. I have no reason to not trust you you have always provided me with what I need always and for the rest of eternity. You are my father in heaven and I will repeat this to myself for as long as I live as a constant reminder of where my worth is placed. As I enter into whatever setting you put before me, I pray that I am reminded that I am a woman of God who will first and foremost bow before her king of kings.

PS- here are a few snaps of some of my recent adventures with some of my favorite people!

Lots of love and I miss you all,

Xoxo Alexa❤️

       
    
    
 

YWAM Update Numero Uno

Hey guys!

I am so deeply sorry that it has taken so long to get an update out. Life on base has been so crazy yet so fruitful, and God is working so much within all of us. He’s been revealing himself in numerous ways so I’m excited to fill you in! Life sure isn’t the same without all of you and while I wish you were here I’m having the best time with the best people. 🙂

Schedule:

You’re probably wondering what exactly keeps me so busy. I never knew the importance of  necessary alone time until coming here, but luckily the things we do have already helped me grow significantly in who Jesus is calling me and all of my team members to be.

Monday-Friday we have morning devotions at 7:45am. We’ve been reading through the Psalms each day. At 8:30 we begin our work duties for a half hour (see mom I can do chores!!;)) followed by an hour of an activity as a base (Monday’s worship, Tuesday’s workshop, and Wednesday’s praying for nations). Thursday and Friday mornings our DTS gets split up to go to local schools in the morning and provide breakfast for the kids in the communities. It’s been quite fun to dance around like an idiot making high schoolers stare at the crazy American in their school LOL. Each day after that hour we have….wait for it…DESIGNATED MORNING TEA. Come on America we need to get on that bandwagon. After morning tea during the week days our time is filled for 2 and a half hours of lecture time. This is the time where I feel most challenged in the most positive way because the last couple weeks we’ve been learning about hearing God’s voice and fearing God. Meditating on the scriptures regarding these topics has been increasingly rewarding and I can feel what Jesus is leading me towards. I’ll be posting quotes here and there to fill you in on the topics! Following lectures is lunch time and then our ministry placement! Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday we work for 2 and a half hours around the base serving and doing other odd jobs to keep our base in tip top shape and running cohesively. Wednesday’s during this time we evangelize at Mount Druitt mall center, a very hard part of town where fights have broken out, people walk around drunk, and just in general the broken use this place to gather. Here we give out food and just talk to people and listen to their stories. Also, on Wednesday’s we fast because we feel that it’s important to cultivate a sense of our flesh dying to become nourished by the Lord. This by far is so challenging and I find myself deepening my faith in this process. To feel hunger for 12 hours is one thing but to be surrounded by people who often feel this way for days, allows me to see others through the eyes of Christ. It has been such a blessing and a privilege to walk with them. In the evenings, we have dinner followed by small group but usually we have late evenings free. Saturday’s are free but because of the closeness of our little DTS we’ve become a family and spend pretty much every waking moment together (and I don’t even want to kill them yet!!;)) Sunday’s we have church and then the rest of the day is filled with homework or other things we didn’t have time for earlier in the week. So that’s been my life for the past two weeks until outreach!:)

Outreach:

As most of you know I made the announcement that we are going to India, Zimbabwe, and South Africa for outreach. WORDS CANNOT DESCRIBE HOW FLIPPING EXCITED I AM. We will mainly be working with orphans which is my dream because of my heavy desire to be a wife and mom, caring for children. What I find funny is that I’ve been praying about these locations for the past year and the fact that God is sending our team here is astounding. Huge prayers for this process as I still need most of the outreach fees. By next Wednesday I need $2500 for the plane ticket and then by the time we leave I need another $3000. Thankfully that’s in Australian dollars so it’s more like $4000 instead of $5500 but it’s a hefty amount that I am confident God will provide for. I am so blessed to have those of you who have constantly supported me and are continuing to do so whether it be through prayer or finances both are incredibly important to me. If you feel led to donate email me!!:) We leave for our outreach on April 24th and before then we also get to explore and work with the indigenous peoples and be in the outback for a week as well as visiting the Blue Mountains and Byron Bay for a week!!

REVELATION:

Ok this is a big one. While I’ve been here God’s been revealing to me His voice and showing me what he needs from my life. Earlier in the week my dear sweet Fin, Janina, prayed for me (she is the most lovely woman you will ever meet) and has the incredible ability of speaking in tongues and Jesus actually spoke through her to me! I was doubled over in a complete puddle. During her prayer she gave a vision of me as an old woman in a rocking chair in front of a fireplace with my husband across from me, surrounded by our kids and grandkids. Jesus expressed through her that He sees my desires and that they will be fulfilled in time but in repetition several times exclaimed “seek first the Kingdom of God, seek first the Kingdom of God, seek first the Kingdom of God and all these things will be given to you but first seek the Kingdom of God.” The prayer went on and God compared me to Cleopatra as an example and someone who will be a leader among women. Again in repetition came up “woman of God, woman of God, woman of God, what does it mean to be a woman of God? Cleopatra was a queen but still had to bow before the King of Kings” I’m not sure what the leader of women part means, I’m still praying upon that but then I was struck with Jesus telling me that HE created me to be beautiful and that beauty is a gift, my laughter is a gift (lol really Jesus?) and to utilize all the other gifts He’s given me to cultivate a servant heart so I may seek first the Kingdom of God. He assured me that He has monumental plans for my life and that He sees my desire for love, He sees the hurt in my past and He’s been beside me the whole time. Through Janina He told me to cry, and you better bet on the angels in heaven I did. I sobbed, I wretched and for the first time fully I allowed him to move in my heart. He said to come to Him with everything because HE can handle it. He bore the cross my friends and He has done that for you too. I have the fear of the Lord within me because I have gained so much awe and reverence for my heavenly daddy. These experiences and the things he’s assured me are such gifts, but I care more about the fact that the one who provided it all is worthy of GLORY. He is worthy of my time, He is worthy of my praise, and worthy of my life. I’m overwhelmingly excited to keep meeting people and learn new things and see where God takes me on this amazing journey.

Fully in surrender I accept the continued growth that He is making in me and I’m praising the blessings that all of you are in my life. Thank you for taking the time to read this and PLEASE if you would like to hear more I would love to hear from you. No matter how busy I am I’d love to hear from you or pray for you in any way that I can. Thank you thank you for helping me get here and letting God use you as vessels for his kingdom friends. I miss you all more than words can describe and I pray that God can reveal and overwhelm your hearts as much as he has mine!! XOXO

Alexa 🙂

PS- my address here is

280 Power St. Plumpton, NSW, 2761 Australia

An Open Letter to Fear

Dear Fears of mine that make me want to seek refuge in the confines of my own mind attempting to figure it all out on my own, or to just completely shut down to the point where I’m avoiding the situation….

You have no power to exist unless I make you exist.

You come about looking to plague me with your incessant voice creeping in when I least expect it, yet you make me feel in the moment as if you are relevant. You say, “you can’t do it,” “it’s all on you,” “you’re just not good enough.” I know you’re wrong, but why is it I allow you to continue coming in and making me miserable?

You are a good liar, but not good enough.

You feast on your attempts to make me turn away from God but I know that you are nothing more than a pathetic ploy to destroy me as a human being. You are attention seeking and you hate the fact that every fiber of my existence was created for something more than feeling sorry for myself and that in God’s relentless pursuit of me you cease to exist. I know that you are a manifestation of a self inflicted punishment on myself that has already been paid by the only One who deserves to fill my thoughts; One that you can never fathom being a part of.

You come to me in many different forms so it’s easy for you to slip by.

Depression, anxiety, negative thoughts, lack of motivation to keep doing what I love because I feel like it won’t amount to anything are all hats you’ve put on to make yourself look different, but you’re just fear. To legitimize your insignificant identity makes you look real small doesn’t it? Which is what you were hoping that by creating such a fuss were hoping to avoid because by getting down to the root of things you see that you are easily thwarted. Before I finish calling you out on who you are there’s one more thing…

You are the uncertainty of my disapproval in the change of a situation.

What if I told you that because you are a manifestation of my own burdens that I’ve refused to lay down at the feet of Jesus, that I have the power to turn you into something beautiful. Just as God has made me new, He also changes my thoughts to change you so there is hope! All throughout Scripture He’s changed names: Abram to Abraham, Sarai to Sarah, Matthew to Levi to name just a few. You could change your name from Fear to Faith. Doesn’t that sound better? The new you is encouraging and produces characteristics of peace, reassurance, and confidence, instead of craving attention and ruining lives. While your old ways might creep in, the new you within the new me can make them disappear, however we CANNOT do it alone. The essence of backsliding is doing it on our own. By constantly running after Jesus you name can forever be Faith instead of Fear and I am constantly reminded that I am his beloved, I am strong and I am capable because it was never about the things you said to me, it’s what God says about me.

Take care new friend, for I forgive the things you’ve said to me since they were merely the enemy’s attempt to turn you against me and me against God. He tries to be clever like that. In forgiving you I’m forgiving myself because I think each and every person is our own worst critic and all you Fears too can become Faith’s.

Love always,

An eternally grateful, loved, and capable child of God

“There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. We love because he first loved us.” 1 John 4:18-19

Less is More and Nothing is Everything: My Road to YWAM

Tonight I sit here resonated with a deep sense of gratitude for how God is stirring within me. As most of you know I’ve felt called to go overseas in January to do the program called Youth With a Mission to not only further my own relationship with the Lord, but to be better equipped to love others around the world, including here at home. This has been a dream and a goal of mine for nearly a year and a half with many struggles and burdens along the way. Time is drawing nearer and nearer with my departure being in an overwhelming 10 short weeks and things are all starting to fall into place, regardless of my previous spending habits, days of discouragement, and maintaining focus on what lies ahead. Throughout the duration of these challenges God has revealed to me astoundingly enough the perspective it takes to cultivate an understanding of the longing each of us has when we seem to be unfulfilled by everything this world has to offer. It’s as if we’re searching for completeness when the Provision that has us there has been pursuing us all along.

The other night I was reading Habakkuk and the hugest thing that stuck out to me was, “Look and be utterly amazed. For I am going to do something in your days that you would not believe, even if you were told.” Habakkuk is a book about a prophet who was in direct communication with God and asked why he allowed such evil to run rampant. Like most of us he couldn’t understand why good things happen to bad people and why bad things happen to good people. While God doesn’t answer some of these questions he assures that destruction will come to those who seek this world. He assures in chapter 2 verse 14 that “the earth will be filled with the knowledge of the glory of the Lord, as the waters cover the sea.” We don’t always understand what or why but the point is that in both those passages God assures us the very best and that the true things that matter cannot be tangible by means of this world. By the end of the book Habakkuk is rejoicing and praising saying that The Lord is his STRENGTH even if he has nothing worldly. This my friends is what I sense to be a crucial issue prevalent in our society. We seek success, material wealth, and our own desires to have comfortable lives on this planet of which we spend so little time. Genuinely I feel like God is constantly stirring in us to be in a state of discomfort and I don’t mean that negatively. I think it means that we need to be convicted daily that if even though our own lives are peaceful this opens up to be a light for someone else and allow that peace to spread. This causes a chain reaction and it’s easy to do when we have everything we want. But what happens when we barely have what we need? We grow stingy, and we want to harbor our resources to ourselves. Now I’m not saying to give all we own to the nearest stranger, but to place a perspective on where we hold our desires in comparison to eternity.

What I’ve realized on this road is that when I have much, He’s the reason for it. When I have much it’s to share with others. Investing life in Him provides contentment because when things of this earth fall away, Jesus is remaining with a warm embrace. You see, when we are left with nothing of this world materialistically what are we left with? We are left with whatever dwells within us and if it’s selfishness then there’s nothing left but death and decay, but when all that is left is vulnerable us, we are open to eternity. When all that’s left is pure, raw, undivided attention from us it allows God to come in with his love. Have you ever loved someone and it spreads like wildfire? That is exactly what happens when we declutter our lives and allow ourselves to unabashedly let God in to love us realizing he is ENOUGH, and then we can better love others; that same exact love that spreads like wildfires.

It all reminds me of the story of Jesus and his disciples feeding the 5,000 people. Think about that. 5,000 hungry bodies craving nourishment. Sound familiar? Replace physical starvation with spiritual. This is the world. This is the driving force behind me doing YWAM, and the reason why this world is the way it is. Jesus and his friends only had a few pieces of fish and bread. They barely had enough for themselves let alone thousands of people, but then something amazing happened. These masses had faith and knew Jesus was ENOUGH and he provided for them. To me the fish and the bread is symbolic of love. When it’s all we have left we find we have a lot to give. We can begin to diminish this world’s spiritual hunger (and physical) by just simply turning away from the things we think we need to the things we know that others need. By pouring into others, others may pour into you. Not only that but we have a God who understands our temptations and desires. Satan tempted Jesus with all the riches this world had to offer, but because Jesus is faithful to His father all he had was HIMSELF, and that alone was enough for the father. Jesus is the Son of God, and could have had the world wrapped around his pinky, he could’ve had more “much” than any of the wealthiest people combined but no. He knew that path lead to destruction so he chose God, He chose us. It was HIM who had the epitome of little and sacrificed Himself and that my friends is why when you accept little, you gain everything.

So as I go about my days and you go about yours let’s constantly be asking ourselves what is much that is distracting us from having little so we may lay it down having nothing, yet gaining everything from the One who truly gave it all.