Excuses Never Prosper

I have been disobedient to God lately. That doesn’t sound like the happy clappy missionary I know y’all think I am, but it’s the truth! How have I been disobedient? My confession entails a sheer lack of willingness to step out into the aspects of ministry I know God has been giving me vision for.

Ever since I arrived in Australia I’ve known that I am here to serve at YWAM. Lately I’ve been asking myself what that means and what it looks like, because I’m fully aware that my season here most likely won’t be forever. I’ve been asking myself how to maximize my time here to take advantage of every opportunity that has been given to me. I’ve been stressing about finances (although I’m super grateful for a church that supports me back home and pays my staff fees to have the ability to serve on base), my purpose, and sometimes even what my ministry even looks like. I feel as if God has been speaking “more” into my life, but it has just recently occurred to me that maybe I should actually talk to Him about it instead of speculating it all on my own (novel idea, hey? HA!)

This vision for my ministry that I’ve had, has been on my heart, my mind, and frankly God just won’t leave me alone about it. When I see myself in ten years I see myself having the ability to give to people to release them into their calling, whether it be ministry or missions. I so desperately see myself wanting to pour into others the way others have poured into me. In a YWAM community I see first hand the way staff and students alike struggle. I’d love nothing more than to be a vessel of which I may bless others and build a life to bring that blessing to the nations.

In September, I signed up to be a consultant for Arbonne. Little did I know that this not only was a job opportunity, but a ministry opportunity that God would have on my heart day in and day out, that eventually I would become disobedient to by ignoring. I have felt strong conviction because I’ve been too afraid to step out because of the bad name network marketing in general is given (though Arbonne is unlike any other network marketing company in the industry) and the fear of rejection and laziness and every other excuse in the book have overwhelmed my knowledge that God is greater and makes a way if HE is the one directing you in the direction He calls you to.

Arbonne is a 37 year old vegan skincare, nutrition, and makeup company. We sell everything from foundation, to diaper cream, to deodorant and toothpaste. Established, and truly living up to its slogan “Pure, safe, and beneficial.” In fact, 4 days before hearing about Arbonne I was making fun of network marketing companies because of the bad rep they get for shoving products down people’s throats. It wasn’t until my now uplines Sabrina, Tess, and Cathy explained it in a way that really resonated with me. Not only that, but upon trying things myself I realized that this was something I could be passionate about because I see the difference in it. That it’s not just a gimmick to make personal gain, but it’s people investing in YOU as a small business owner instead of huge corporations that are selling you cheap products containing highly refined black crude oil, dead animal fat (gross), and other horrendous things most people have no idea they are putting on and in their body. Not only that but also with inflated prices where the CEO is probably on his or her third holiday home. And guess what else? Even if you don’t want to buy anything, or become a consultant, I still want you!! Valuing the individual is critical because this isn’t a cutthroat business. Everyone has something to offer, whether it be you knowing someone who might want to know more, or you want to host! There are a plethora of options for everyone beyond just buying and selling.

Fast forward 7 months. I’m still an independent consultant, and I haven’t promoted to the first level of management yet. Why? I haven’t done anything towards it! I have this grand vision of being able to educate people on what they put on and in their bodies and giving them an alternative that not only benefits me financially, but benefits in building relationships, and eventually having a sustainable business that supports others to grow in what God is calling them towards. That the financial freedom isn’t to be something that is greedy but another open door because unfortunately to do anything in this world you have to have money. Jesus has shown me perseverance, commitment, and what it looks like to bear fruit for the sake of His kingdom because of this company. Because I desire to see people healthy, and being good stewards of themselves, each other and this world. I want to build connections and relationships with people who I otherwise wouldn’t have a reason to get connected with. I want more than anything to have the financial freedom to see ministries flourish because of the financial blessing God is entrusting to me and others to further His kingdom. I want to see other men, women, and families have this same ability.

I could sit around and complain that I’m not getting anywhere, but isn’t it like that with most things we do in life? Sometimes God so desperately wants to move, but I know what He won’t do is spoon feed His children when He knows that with Him they are capable of so much more. The things we pursue so long as they are for the glory of God will be blessed and He will direct our steps. As a missionary, I have no money. Like, none….but, instead of letting my pride get the best of me, God has given me this avenue to be able to not only create an income, but to do something so much more valuable with it that I wouldn’t trade for the world.

If you’ve read this far, I appreciate you for bearing with me in love and seeing my vision of what God has been speaking to me. Please, I LOVE when people ask me questions and if this post has sparked anything in you feel free to reach out! Feel free to follow my journey as I will be updating more about this business turned ministry opportunity and I would love to have people partner with me in this endeavor.